When Dad Guilt Takes Over: Going back to work

Looking back to when I was a new dad, I thought I was prepared for anything that could come my way. I read books, attended the parenting class, and did my best to be supportive to Natalie during her pregnancy. But despite my preparation, nothing could have prepared me for the overwhelming feeling of dad guilt that I felt in the early stages of Charlie's life.

Going back to work after the birth of Charlie was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. I felt guilty for leaving Natalie at home to care for Charlie on her own, and I worried that I was missing out on all the important moments of Charlie's life.

Every day when I left for work, I felt like I was abandoning my family. I would kiss Natalie and Charlie goodbye in the morning, and I felt a pang of guilt in my chest. I couldn't shake the feeling that I should be at home, helping to care for Charlie.

Even when I was at work, my mind was constantly on my family. I would worry about whether he was sleeping enough, eating enough, or getting enough attention. I felt like I was sort of failing as a father, that I wasn't doing enough or being around enough.

But over time, I learned to manage these feelings of guilt. I realised that going back to work was necessary to help provide for my family. I couldn't be there for every moment, but I could make the most of the time that I did have with them.

I also learned to appreciate the little moments. When I got home from work, I would hope Charlie would wake up so that I could go to him. I would play with him, read his (or my) favourite stories, and help with the bedtime routine on the days I finished early. It wasn't always easy, but I cherished every moment.

Looking back, I realise that these feelings were completely normal. Being a new parent is tough, and it's natural to feel like you're not doing enough especially as a dad.

In the end, the guilt I felt as a new dad was a sign of how much I cared. It was a reminder that being a father is the most important job I'll ever have. So if you're feeling guilty as a dad, know that you're not alone. It's a sign that you care, and that you're doing everything you can to be the best dad you can be.